May 2010
1 post
It doesn't matter where you came from, all that...
April 2010
3 posts
Why do people hold grudges?
I can’t stand it. Especially if I know I’m wrong, and I said sorry. That just pisses me off so much. You know, every day is a new day, lighten up! I just wish people could forgive and forget. Maybe not forget, but at least forgive. It’s them having the courage to apologize and realize what they did wrong, and you have the courage to accept what they did wrong. The true spirit of...
I miss writing in this tumblr.
Good morning, all 37 followers. Hahha. Today I woke up, to my my mom vacuuming the downstairs. I knew not to go downstairs or else I’d get sucked in to cleaning. So I stayed in bed for a little longer and ended up falling asleep for another hour. Haha. Then she woke me up to breaaaakfast. YUM. Bacons, eggs, and filipino fried rice;) The businesss. Drank mah juice and ate mah fruit, then went...
January 2010
12 posts
I spend most of my days doing nothing but homework. I do it all to get my grade up. Does my grade up? Nope. I hate this. I want school to be over like now. So much for straight A’s. I tried so hard. I’m not gonna stop trying, but with me getting no where and not being able to get my grade up makes me feel like a failure. Hmph. My phone is being lame and won’t recieve text....
If you’re sitting next to someone on a plane who...
Quietly and calmly open up your laptop case.
Remove your laptop.
Start it up.
Make sure the fellow traveller who is annoying you can see the screen.
Close your eyes and tilt your head up to the sky and move your lips like you are praying.
Then click here.
HAHAHA. LMAO.
Nighty night, tumblr.
I had a pretty good day today. School was chillll, stayed after for a meeting, went home. Ran, did all my homework. Now I’m on the computer. Tomorrow will hopefully be another good day. Schooool, staying after, and then meeting at PCC. I haven’t seen them in so long. ): Ah I’m so sleepy. Gooodnights.
I have the biggest headache.
Huuuuuuurts. I need to go running in a little bit, then shower, then CCD. I really don’t want to go. It’s so boring.
Five hours later, and I'm still not done with hw.
That just shows I’m not a very productive person when I have aim, tumblr, & mixpod open on the comp. *sighhh. Oh well, I still have all night and tomorrow to do it. Anyways, I stayed home all day because I couldn’t go out. What fun right? Since Marlon got his lisence today, him & Ronnie drove by my house but I couldn’t go outside. Hahah. Woops. Other than that, I just...
I hate homework, I just wanna chill.
I’ve been doing my APHG hw since like 2? 2 out of 7 Essays are done. -__- I’m working on 3 right now. I wish everyday could be spent like yesterday! Just straight chilllen. Haha. Anywaaaaays, I guess tumblr isn’t helping me get any homework done. Booo.
I haven't had this much fun in awhile,
Today was a blast. I guess I’ll start from dinner time. Camille picked me up around 450. Bdubs isn’t far at all, and Jor & Ria were already there. Then everyone started coming. I accidently told the lady that only 13 people were, but more people came. Unexpectedly. Haha, it’s okay though. I’m glad they came. We took a LONG time to order and we finally got our food. Nom,...
Lately, I've been feeling sick.
Maybe it’s just the winter weather. It’s rare that I get sick though, *knocks on wood. Right now I have a cough, headache, heavy eyes, sore throat, and a runny nose. I just want it all to go away! I don’t want to go to school tomorrow, but I have to. I took a nap today on the couch, and I wanted to stay there. Moms wouldn’t let me though because she said it gets really cold...
I don't want to go back to school!
For one, my sleeping pattern is messed up. And two, I just want summer to come back. Winter break reminded me of Summer! ): Where you at summer !
And the count down begins ..
The year is about to end for us East Coast folks, and it’s now hitting me. Its that sort of feeling where you’re not ready for something to happen, but it’s going to happen anyways. YEAH, well that’s how I feel. I’m not ready for 2009 to end because I’ve had the best and the worst memories. Best memories > worst memories. Sure, I’ve had a few people in my life who have left me, as well as the...
Woohoo, 2010.
I hope this will be a good year. :D I’m excited.
December 2009
23 posts
It bothers me when,
people IM me and then expect me to start the conversation. I think it’s just a little pet peve of mine. If you’re gonna IM me talk to me, damn. Especially when people call me and are quiet the whole time, expecting me to talk to them. Like damn, you called me right? Haaaaa, I’m sayin!
Despise everything that happend last night,
I’m all better. I love my family! The way my brother and I reacted was out of hand, but I’m glad thigns are all better. It’s Christmas, we should be happy and thankful for all we have; not just the material things. Family is number one, just think of how much they gave you, even if you don’t notice it. The love, the happiness, the joy they bring, they all add up. To me,...
I wish I could open up,
and tell people how I feel. I’m not good at it. I just always hold back, hoping it’ll come out another time. Usually it doesn’t though. I always hold back how I feel, always always always. It’s not because I don’t want to tell them, but because I’m afraid of how they will feel too, or what their reaction will be. Ugh. I gotta think about this sometimes. I need...
Ice skating hurt so much.
I felll ONCE, but that one fall was so hard. I was at the end and the whip was mad hard. Anyways, Julie picked me up around 1150 and then we went to Ronnie’s house. We chilled at Ronnies house for a bit, and Tonetti and Janelle came too. After that, we went to chillled ponds. Ronnie & Tonetti got lost, good lord. Haha, Ronnie wouldn’t let Julie help and meet up somewhere. Took them...
Why am I talking to you?
This is stupid, I’m just sitting here. Why do you even bother to call me if you’re just gonna sit there and do nothing. Ugh.
I must admit,
I’m not good at keepng conversations going anymore. I used to be able to keep a conversation going for days, I don’t know what happened. I used to be able to break the silence, now I just go on with it. Even though I can barely stand silence, I can’t find the courage to break it anymore. Maybe it’s because you’re not good at keeping a conversation either? I...
Noticed a lot of things tonight,
1. It takes a lot for me to open up. I’d rather be the person who just listens to the story. It’s really hard for me to explain my feelings. I don’t know if thats a good or bad thing. It becomes a little bit easier when the someone tells me their story/their feelings first. I don’t know. I just realized this tonight when I was talking with Camille. I’d rather just...
I'm worrrrrried ..
Hopefully she doesn’t take my spot.
I guesss,
I can be a jealous person. I don’t mean to, it just happpens. But whateverrrrrr, I hope I have nothing to worry about. -______- Seee you tomorrow.
Mmmmmmm,
bothers me how you know everyone just cos of TokBox. Now all of a sudden you’re like best friends with them, and now you’re tokboxing with sdhfkjsadfhs! NO WAY homegirl. UH UHHH!
It bothers me when,
people try to hard. Like hollering over myspace? HAHA, get outta here maan! ——: So you talking to anyone? Me: Actually, I am. ——: Oh forreal, you should get to know me when you done talking to them. Since you know, we live in the same hood and all. I’d be good. Me: I see. ——: You down for that?
And I don’t reply after that.
Mm, going christmas shopping today.
with my brother. Pretty excited, haven’t hung out with him one-on-one in awhile. SO it’ll be fun. Last night was alright. You fell asleeep on tokbox, hahah.. you look like such a baby! ;D I’ma go get redy now. Offffffff<3
yesterday,
On my way to my meeeeting, I was like “Mommy, it’s almost ______’s birthday.” And she was like, I know. And I was like, “I wonder how ________’s doing.” And she goes, just text *them, ask *them how they’re doing. And I just started to cry. It gets me every time to think of how close we once were. Now we’re just strangers to each other. It makes...
It makes me smile when,
I hear a guy that can sing. It’s so cute. Especially when his voice is so soothing and OOOH, oh my gosh. Hahaha. You have no idea! Like this feller right here. He gives me chillls! Mmmm. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aXq9052mgs0
I want ice cream.
I miss you, best friend.
We hardly talk anymore. It’s niether of our faults that we both have a busy life. I guess it was just easier when we didn’t go to the same school. We’d always have a conversation about like what happened at school, now there’s no need for that cos word gets around. I guess I just miss being able to talk to you all the time.
Why are you such a jerk? Why can’t you ever be upfront about things? I don’t know if what I read was true, but if so, wow. That’s such a shallow move. I tell you I need something, hoping you would help me, but you just look at me and say okay. Well thanks, that show you DO want to be good friends. HA. I’m such a fool, silly silly fool. I saw this coming and I didn’t...
Stop saying this and that, you say it, but you don’t even stick to your word. You want to know something I kept in for awhile? I knew. I knew you didn’t feel the same way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen. I figured a few more days with you was better than never. So will you stop saying all of this crap, I’m tired of it. On top of everything, silly me. I knew better...
November 2009
133 posts
It bothers me
when people don’t try. I know there’s times where I don’t try either, but believe me; I’m TRYING to over come that. I want to try, I want to be the best I can be, I want tp give something my all. There’s nothing to lose.
Lately, I’ve realized that all I really need is...
I really really do. And you were the only person who would. Turn around and come back. Cos despite everything I said in the past, I’m reading over it; I was lying to myself. I notice I’m not fine without you, what was I thinking. His plans are already set in stone, why would He change it now? True story.
Question,
I question myself all the time. And I’ll never know the answers. Why did we still kiss after we broke up? Why were we okay ten minutes after we broke up? Why was I blinded by the good love you gave me? Why did I feel like I could be perfectly fine without you? Why was I being really stupid? Why can’t I just have you back?
For some reason I can't tell you why I feel this...
See what I want so much should never hurt this bad. I just want to spillll my feelings to you only afraid of what you’ll think and what you’ll say, but hoping deep down inside it makes a difference in our relationship. Hear me out.
Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me. I...
(via eyeizsunshine)
Giving thaaanks ..
To my family, friends, God, those who put food on the table, and much more. I’m thankful for you for putting up with me, even when I’m at my worst. I’m thankful for you not letting me down and just throwing our friendship away when it maybe the easiest thing to do right now. I’m thankful for you for always finding a way to make me smile unconditionally. I’m thankful...
When my phone vibrated, I was hoping it was a text message from you. It wasn’t, it was just a facebook update thing. Ugh. )=
Lately,
I’ve been saying FML a lot. I question myself wondering if I really do feel that way? Haaa, I don’t knoooow.
Goodnight,
Gonna lay down. Text if you know wassup.
